The Beacon

GTH

2011-12-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

There is no right or wrong
When you love or hate them more
It depends on the heart's deep core
Which tears can be composed into a song
Heart-breaking and long.

4 Moon

2011-12-21T16:16:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog,
did you miss me?

Finally, I am graduated from secondary school.
Time really flies.
Ha... How I miss thee...

GMET

2011-11-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

Song of the Sparrow...
Elaine of Astolat...
The Lady of Shalott...

Q

2011-09-03T15:57:00.002+08:00

I never thought that i will cry helping people.

No more

2011-08-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

No more!
We no longer friends.
From now on, I will treat you only as nothing.

Friendship is privacy!
This kind of simple principle, don't you know that?
Uh! whatever, you are a slow sensor.

Ok.
Seems like you dunno the principle,
and made everybody thinks that you are the right one?
Fine! I will let you know WHAT IS RIGHT!

Waiting

2011-08-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

I was the make up artist for the St. John One Day Camp 2011.
haha! at least I contributed my talent for this year.
Remembering last year,
the camp was so tiring for me to handle,
but,
at least we did it successfully. ( TQ Kor Kor! )
Compare to this year?
XD... the only weakness is,
poor in time management. ( same same a bit )

The only Game I enjoyed the most is,
The stone-soap throwing.
It seemed easy,
but if I compare it with the same thing we played in the 2011 librarian camp, ( which we played it with water balloon ), I preferred stone soap.
Maybe was the friends as our opponents were funny,
which they had filled the air with laughter.
( me and kor cooperate very well, keep going! )
haha! shout like hell as a messenger for a shouting game.

Last,
what should flock together had flocked.
I was happy inner-ly.

Quit

2011-07-29T17:54:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow,
creep paty pace....

My 'tomorrow' does not come in a creeping way,
it flies! (freeeeeeeeeee!!)

Heartache II

2011-07-27T20:30:00.001+08:00

I wanna cry out loud. ( WuuUUuWAAAAAAaaaaAAA!)
Whenever I have a sad moment,
Whenever I am listening " Kiss the Rain ",
Whenever I think of people whoever smiled at me before,
( Gosh. crying now! tears, don't drop please...)
I wanna cry...
T.T

Compare me to her,
undeniable that she is much better than me.
So what?
Do I have to change just for something temporary?
No. I have my own uniqueness. =)
Where is my Prince?
No.
I don't dream about Princes.
I always dream about Warrior.
A person which I can rely on and have the feel of protection whenever he exist.
YES! That's is!
All I need is a Warrior.

I will be waiting for the real Warrior presence in the battle field,
which I am now captured,
and he will set me freeeeeeeee..... ( angry bird )

Bermuda Triangle

2011-07-26T19:06:00.001+08:00

What a LMFAO day today.
MY class planned to go for vacation after SPM.
All of us popped out with crazy places. ( noobers )
At last, they came to a decision.
They decided to go to Penang ( Jamboree!! ) & Ipoh ( Oh No!).
Great! I can't go.
4 months training waiting for me.

Actually,
I am not happy today.

1st,
I was added to a group in FB, which I thought was a home for me.
Well, I was wrong.
That stupid "instant noodle" seems like X like me.
Fine...
If you thought that I am not cool, say it LOUD lah!
Why use sword-like word to hurt people indirectly?!
Tell me why you dislike me?
Because I am smarter than you? ( GREAT!)
Because I am more talented than you? ( COOL! )
Really stupid comments!

2nd,
I am out of his list.
Angel of Mount's target is Angel of Wonderland.
( sei sam la SK! ) T.T

Why life is so miserable?

Heartache

2011-07-25T15:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes, thing really happened that out of your expectation.
"All is Well"
that's what Wangdu taught me.

That Mount. Everest...
First, we were close.
Since I revealed the secret,
he is now far away from me.
Worse than I thought,
He went to another Magnetic Field.
Why?
I don't know,
and I scared to know.

Love?
my definition of love:
" It is a thing that can't detect by sensory organ, except using soul"

I love you! I love you! I love you!
Of course you can't hear me at the peak,
because I am in the valley.

Round About

2011-06-29T20:22:00.000+08:00

yea, i think maybe i should quit now.
Keep on spinning will not give me any answer.
Sometimes, silence is good, in order to reveal secret.

Prince

2011-05-16T13:19:00.001+08:00

Since my blog not so popular,
then I can write straight forwardly whatever I like.

Look! My Black Widow!
Yea. 'She' is beautiful.
Most of the fishes will feel envy.

If you are trying to be grateful for your princes,
Then I have plenty of my angels to be thanked.

1st,
Thank you Angel of White.
Thank you for helping me the numbers business.
Tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa, you are a genius.
But, better watch out for your EQ.
I love you.

2nd,
Thank you Angel of Horizon.
Thank you for non-stop bringing laughter.
It always makes me happy.
( although sometimes I dunno what on earth are you laughing at, but your laughter will always makes people laugh )
I love you.

3rd,
Thank you Angel of Summer.
Thank you for advices.
( although I always take you as a "gas-tube". But, we are forever best gossiping partner )
You need to be strong nowadays.
Beware of liars.
I love you.

3 versus 2.
I win.
=P

Milky way

2011-05-05T18:33:00.000+08:00

Extremely happy nowadays. =)
RM 15 for my A art. -.- ( not bad la )
Press on next time.

E.X.A.M
-o- ( pls dun come forever )

Yuan Lai,
you are better than me.
Yuan Lai,
He loves me. ( Father )
No one understand me except Him.
love Thee.

Just keep on telling myself,
DON'T ever try to purposely fall to the depth of despair again.
Trust yourself.

SHOWDOWN 2011.
Elecoldxhot!!!

2:1

2011-05-02T12:44:00.000+08:00

okay young lady,
try your best to be positive.
nothing comes easy.
Right? ( yea...)

First,
I am a kidddo. ( 1+1=2 )
Second,
I am a weirdo. ( 1+1=11 )
... ( can't you just shut your shitful mouth? )
... ( ZIPPP!!! )
... ( thank you lugnut. )

Hmm...
Why human are so complicated,
and they can make their lives so simple?
( A.B.C.D.E.F.G... )
I think,
they are forced to be simple.

New Star

2011-05-02T12:33:00.000+08:00

How?
Teach me what to do.

Why?
Lead me out of here.

What?
I don't know what is that.

????
I don't know anything of these.

Are you caring for all these?
Or,
are you just pretend to know nothing.
I don't want to fall into the rabbit's burrow again.
Don't want to re-wondering again.
Don't want to re-escape again.

I just can't have you,
because you are not the star I longed for.

Brown Nose

2011-04-06T20:42:00.000+08:00

wats the feeling of being betrayed?
SPICY. ( 1st you get burnt, 2nd you get your tears )

NIE 2011 grouping. ( wrote it on the sand )
SUCKS! beg him like a dog! DOG-SHIT!
i tell myself,
" next time dun be a brown nose anymore! it will cause you to lose your dignity! "
Yea! BT agreed.

the betrayal is a noob~
the betrayal is a noob~
NOOber NOOber, All are Noobs.
( dun dare to start the word with "F" )
Be good. Be GOD. =P

really had a Hardship.
'trust no one' tats all.
from now on,
dun put too much hope on someone,
because,
once you got the betrayal from your friend,
you are the one who will fall to the deepest.

BE POSITIVE.
No pain, no gain! ( yea, the bird is right )
Life sucks and then you'll die ( yea, me too )
Pain,
hurt when betrayed by brown noses.
Gain,
gotcha! you nasty slimy cobra with a 3 forked tongue. =P

Respect?!
I won't respect to ViRuS!
But,
I will keep my "NICE FAKE SWEET SMILE" for you.
simply dedicated to You! =) ( wow! how fake! )

waste my time begging DOGS.
lost my 0.001% of dignity for DOGS.
Lost my calories for DOGS. ( is not worth it for my fats to burn for ye! )
All DOGS clot together. ( ya! i saw it many many times and this tme is the special one )
Monitor? ( I respect keyboard! )
GO keyboard GO!

The Power of Soul

2011-04-04T10:35:00.001+08:00

Everybody wants a fame
A portrait of us to be framed
Chasing our dreams like a game
To pursue the first place
It will never be the same
When it all started again

Laughter is forbidden
When someone is having a sad moment
Wisdom is needed
In order to gain freedom
Be obedient
Like the warriors of the ancient

When a mighty lion opens its jaw
You will next hear its roar
Fleshes will be torn by its paw
Cried from the prey’s heart deep core
What would it be if there is an eternal war?
Shout of victory will be heard no more

What’s the difference between love and hate
When the fate is made
Run your life as a race
Once you reach the end
It is either awesome like a girl name Kate
Or awful like a boy name Jake

Slimy cobra with a three forked tongue
Listen to rumors same as listen to dogs bark
Nothing you will see instead of dark
Trust in the truth like entering the Ark
Forever as happy as a lark

Dedicated to: Elf-n-Goblin

Where is he?

2011-04-03T14:25:00.000+08:00

Where is he?
I have been finding him, waiting him, for a week!
But,
I have no idea where has he gone?
I wanna know.

...
I just wanna know. =(

Compass

2011-04-02T17:46:00.000+08:00

Look to the North,
I saw Angel of Miss.

Look to the South,
I saw Angel of Sagittarius.

Look to the East,
I saw Angel of Happiness.

Look to the West,
I saw Angel of White.

I am not sure,
whether which one is the best.
The worst,
there is no any compass for me to refer and go through this forest.
The only thing I can follow is the beacon.

Dedicated

2011-04-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

Me? Nah... Haven't
Is hard to dedicate to some thing,
unless you are really in love with it.

I was doing something i was forced to do,
but i won't regret. ( there are no revenges for that )
And... see! I just did it!
Blek! simply done it.
haiz... ( why life can't be just as simple as XYZ )

Elf-n-Goblin,
part of my life.
He, is the apple of my eye. ( at least not pineapple )

5A,
part of my life.
Birds, are my favorite animals. ( ~chirping )

Chess,
had just became part of my life.
CheckQueen, and I will be dead. ( so don't check my queen )

Blog,
part of my life.
Yay! type type type! ( listen to my keyboard mumbling )

=)

Black and White

2011-03-31T19:21:00.001+08:00

White:
1st Attack.
2nd Defence.
Hey white, don,t ever think you are so pure and innocent.
There is no such thing we call innocent in the war battle.
We can see you easily, so don't act stupidly.

Black:
1st Defence.
2nd Attack.
Yoh! Cool black, don't ever think that your colour will scare off anyone else.
You acted like a shadow, but, one thing for sure, you can RUN, but you can't HIDE.

Pawn (Go pawnie go!), Rook (Straight forward), Knight (L is their only lisence), Bishop (slimy cobra with a 3 forked tongue) , Queen (How could I live without you~), King (useless King)!

Yay! Goodbye!

Man

2011-03-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

Number 1
He is just a crazy bonker!

Number 2
He is cool.
But we have not contacted since the quarrel.

Number 3
He is tall and dark, like a giant tree.
His voice like thunder.
And... like a shark!
yikes!

Number 4
He is tall too, but very fair, like a cloud above my head.
So caring.
I can feel the gentle of his.

=) is getting better every time.

A-level

2011-03-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

A-level seems so strange for me.
What i know in all these days, and aim for, is STPM.
I never ever think about taking A-level, until today.
Hmmm...
maybe it's the better decision for taking A-level.
save time. =)

what you paid, and what you will gain.
Life taught me this.

S

2011-03-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

i just posted a new post~
i just posted a new post~
La la~ La la~
all fall down~ ( yay! Lie on the pile of golden fallen leaves )

-.-!! ( acted like a child )

=) ( i lovin it! )

Boys should not has tears

2011-03-26T18:11:00.000+08:00

I don't want to recall what happened yesterday.
It was a total shame. ( not me )
It was on him!
A boy, who was so DAMN soft!

Sometimes, i thought to myself.
What will happened if i am a boy? ( cool )
1. I will be a playboy. ( pretty babes )
2. Addicted with online games. ( yeah haha )
3. I will be drowned with girls. ( i will be too handsome)

pretty sucks huh? ( ya, a lot )

haiz... admiring a person.

Tall like a tree.
As fair as a marsh-mellow.
Gentle like a harmless white feather.
Tough like a giant rock.
A which always brings laughter to people.
Obedient like a warrior's battle horse.
Hard-working.
smart.
caring.

Like Like Like!

=)

I gave up the persuasion of JADE.
I began my journey to the persuasion of SAPPHIRE.

The Past Tenses

2011-03-20T20:07:00.000+08:00

I have just looked through the previous things that i have posted long long ago...
Hmm...
Dee Dum Dum... Doo Doo Dum Dum...
thinking.... loading.... and... still... thinking...
UGH!
can't life just be that simple?! >o<
say CHEESE~ =D
good... i gained back my happy mood.
without somebody, we still can live right? right?

I was once merry! (yay!)
and i was once down... (no!)
stupid end call:
Lord you love me so immensely~
I would love you more intensely~
la..la...la..la...

Live in my own world,
easy to be satisfied... =)

-hey little kiddo, be matured!
-warao! don't lo... wer eh...
-poke poke poke! FB!
-ya la! you very stupid!

=P

Tears of The violin

2011-03-20T17:32:00.001+08:00

stole my title!
beh shong you!
haiz...

what I only hope this time is,
my poem is the ordinary one.
won't be chosen anymore,
so that i will not frust and disapointed.

Translate:

THE NATION OF SUN

Look at the land of mine,
from nothing, it was transformed into golden paddy field.
And from a golden paddy field, it was transformed into a metropolis.
Day time, we fight with faith infinity.
On the stage, we fight for the main actor in our play.
At night, we stop the fight.
On the dance floor, we have dance with Happiness.
We develop diligently,
and live colourfully,
because
we are the nation of sun!

Look at the land of mine,
Badly earth-quaked,
Flooded in darkness,
Exploded into ashes,
back to square, haunted, vanity...
It seems like we have nothing.
But, we won't give up!
We will continue to run for our goal move forward,
because
we are the nation of sun!

Shiver

2011-03-19T17:37:00.000+08:00

Finally,
i found this blog accidentally.
really all of a sudden.
i can't believe that i have found you my dear blog. =)

there were many things happened.
about me, and the 2nd coming of Christ.
Shiver huh?

i saw loves,
but i didn't admit that i found them. =P

time flies imba fast.

Moonrise...
will i see it again.
or won't forever.
As the book said:
" fixed forever in birth,
where the earth meets the sky."
Nice words. =)

forever =)
forever XD
...... that doesn't has an end.

ISH

2011-03-19T13:42:00.000+08:00

finally....
i found you jor!!!!!!! ish ish ish

Light intensity

2010-10-11T18:27:00.000+08:00

here we meet again.
the scar the person created for me won't heal and i won't forget.
Is not just that i dun wan to forget but hard to forget.
i know, i once followed the wrong shooting star,
which nearly caused me die.
i know that person once a human.
so warm and comfortable.
but know that person is a vampire,
so cold and wicked.
i don't wan to be a vampire ( although blood is tasty )
i love werewolf.

in my life,
there is vampire and a werewolf and i am in the middle between them.
the weak one is the vampire and the strong one is the werewolf.
prey is better than predator.
i am the producer.
i hate sunlight sometime.
But what to do,
to live,
i have to.

anti-wild birds

2010-10-03T17:02:00.000+08:00

they smelled like shit.
what kind of birds are they?
lend me a bazooka, i will shoot their wings off.
totally no God at all.
so mean and so coward.
SHAME on them.
how could Christ had saved them and shed His blood for those... knuckles holding looking wild birds?
Which damn forest are they from?
don't bother us...
fly in your cage and not my sky.
i don't want sky to be spotted by lame shit birds.
pollute my beautiful sky...

Island Princess

2010-08-28T16:10:00.000+08:00

sun goes down,
and we are here together.
fireflies,
close like a thousand charms.
stay with me,
and you can dream forever,
right here in my arms.

it's magic,
when you're here beside me.
close your eyes,
and let me hold you tight.
everything,
that i could ever need is,
right here with my arms,
tonight.

some place,
made a way.

stars began to climb.

melodies,
fill the breeze,
sweeter over time.

somewhere stand us.
we are here together.

is always here.
grow like a thousand charms.

stay with me,
and you can dream forever,
right here in my arms,
tonight.

Car Credit Cash $$$

2010-08-28T16:02:00.000+08:00

i am sot sot today, so stop wasting your precious time for reading this nonsense page.

snow blew off the canyon walls in slashes of white.
Visibility was narrowing, and time was slipping away.

a little drop of water can make a might ocean.

the greater the risk the greater will be the opportunity because only very few would dare to attempt.

most of people make a common mistake...
by thinking of failure as the enemy of success...
you have got to put failure to work for you...
go ahead and make mistakes.
make all you can.
because, remember that's where you will find success - on the far side of failure.

summer is delicious,
rain is refreshing,
wind braces up,
snow is exhilarating;
there is no such thing as bad weather,
only different kinds of good weather.

The Pain

2010-08-18T17:19:00.000+08:00

Me E,
have been traveled near and far...
and happy to be at home,
especially sitting here, enjoy blogging...
( humming melody ) ^^

from the east traveled to the west,
and from the south traveled to the north.
but,
what i know is...
there is still a very extremely long journey hidden in my life and waiting to pick it and start traveling...
will i pick it? ( afraid ? )

the answer is

yes!

The Gain

2010-08-18T17:08:00.000+08:00

I believe that every one will have to lose something instead of gaining things everyday... Me too.

I lost my good friend.
We had been together for the last 2 years.
We laugh together, sob together and traveled the whole town.
I missed it very much.
But,
our heart for some one will easily fade as the time pass...
It was hard for me to forget you... Maybe I should let it go...
and... yes... i made it... i finally stepped out from our world, our tiny and knowing nothing world.
I have seen this world, it was so... measurable...
maybe our friendship ended not really happy but it had been one of my passage to know this wide world and live even more happier than ever...
Although i see you sometimes without blurting any word to you, but one thing for sure,
you had made my world once and forever wide.

thanks dude!
( although i hate you before )

The International Friendship Jamboree 2010

2010-07-17T17:46:00.000+08:00

what a big deal... went there for eight days, met friends i havent met and gain max ko-ko marks. 20 man! GREAT.

yaya! Jamboree made me a Pahang Lover dy...
I LOVE PAHANG!
I met friends from Perak, Labuan, Kuantan, Thailand, Selangor, and so on.
I have seen your blog,
makes me know u more better.
ya, Great. I will stop sms-ing you, and concentrate with my spoiled friendship.
trying to repair it okay...

I love the Kayak-ing thing...
thanks buddy, you are my best partner...
we manage our canoe very good, well done.

i dun like her,
so i didnt talk to her too much except for music stuff.

hey,
i found a strong observant person like me,
good one dude!

I hate to dive into any relationship in the Jamboree,
so i didnt. Good one!

Jamboree made my soul to be stronger, and tough.
I dunno whether it is good or bad... Oh no... Doom me...

Jamboree made me laugh,
Jamboree made me smile,
Jamboree made me WILD!!!!

I wont forget the hiking thing,
it made my lungs harden... HaHA!
and freezing...

and what i gained after i came back?
... member of the Jamboree group in Facebook...
Cool...
and an unfinished report waiting for me to accomplish...
haiz...

Kem Pengawas PSS 2010

2010-06-19T15:53:00.002+08:00

Blog Sweet Blog.

1st, i was late there in the 1st day.
Because i thought it began the day after tomorrow.
Me and my team able to manage the computer lab first floor,
very good.
i couldn't imagine Soohg berani enough to enter girl's toilet to fill up water.
very good. ( ai yoh! that was what we call " fang bian" )

In the evening,
we went for our " persediaan Persembahan".
know what we did?
our pengerusi Loo decided for us to dance Indian Dance.
the 2 Indian sisters showed us 10 moves,
and we were instructed to use those 10 original moves and invent our own other new moves.
very good.
Walaupun the song was " an ne ne" de song,
but the hip-hop bass was heavy,
easy for us pick up.
very good.
the original moves were:
擦白板
射子弹
闪子弹
黄狗撒尿
开门关门
捶胸口
发癫
炒菜
走猫步
and my kumpulan 5 de Lim invented:
ULTRAMAN
CAN-CAN DANCE
MONKEY STYLE

soo noob! PuUuUuUiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd day
the senaman pagi like PLKN.
soo noob! ( many many noobers )
the books have obesity,
Di samping menyusun buku, saya juga mengamalkan sikap kerajinan,
tengok buku ensiklopidia. wah! banyak menarik...
lol
We had a " How to write katalog" ceramah.
I went there for zzzzzzzzzz....
Seterusnya,
we went for our susun buku again and latih " a ne ne" dance in the following
evening.
At night, we had BBQ.
I was confused that night whether i was bakar-ing a chicken wing or arang.
lol...
Some even more noob.
He went to a piece of orange on the table hoh, and squeeze hard hard until the juice dripped on his chicken, maybe fishball i guessed ( i can't see that night, its dark, the boys chose a totally no light place to BBQ, so love the earth oh ), to mengawet his chicken.
so noob...

i think i better fast forward>>>>>

then,
we present our indian dance.
my group had a vote,
but group 3 had 4 votes.
very good. they won!
we were false to dance together at last,
like a night party.
i was force to do but i really have a little bit fun.
I was taught PARTY=爬地
i dun want ler...

then,
i continue bakar my chicken.
after bakar and makan.
i went back to the library.
i thought it was the end of that day and ready for zzzzz..
mana tau,
SATU MALAYSIA muncul-ed!
the girls all gather around like campfire
and dance together.
( i joined them! wakaka! )
we copied the indians moves and danced.
we go around a circle and dance untill the music ended.
GREAT!
I felt like living in the Africa culture...
very Africa...
very Red-Indian...
very zaman Paliolitik...
like the nation of Avatar.
woo-hooooooooo!!!!!!!!

1st Recovery in Malaysia - Manjung

2010-06-10T12:04:00.000+08:00

I went for recharge battery and came back already...
" Tree of Hope" I read already haha...

人的心比万物都诡诈，
无法医治，
谁能识透？
i agree with the bible word above. AMEN!
we dunno ourselves actually,
the implant of sin inside us is cannot be removed!
有罪性，就造成了罪案。
Man is hopeless,
But the Lord loves us,
He dead for us and had redeem us from the Liar's hand.
That's His great mercy.
Thank you Lord.

I miss myself

2010-04-28T16:36:00.003+08:00

Long time no reblog my blog dy...
nothing to say anymore accept " walao"
I have nothing left but a piece of cake, still pretty cool, no big deal.
I love Physics and not Biology, so a very sorry to all my angels.
Chemistry? nah.... normal .

Persona-Poem

2010-01-13T19:19:00.001+08:00

Elaine...

Artistic, Bombastic Fantastic, Introvet.
Heavenly creation of God.
Who loves the taste of happiness,
supplement from the earth and alphabets from books.
Who is afraid of problems with no solution,
things that creep in the darkness and numbers.
Who wants to see sinless world,
laughter overcomes mourning and the 2nd coming of Christ.
Overcomer of all obstacles.

Why... is a sirname for calling,
not for asking and teasing.

稻香

2010-01-11T19:28:00.003+08:00

当我正读着,（青色的围墙）这本书时，
我有一首歌在脑海中不停的打转。。。

那就是(稻香)
我只记得这两句而已...

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡,
随着稻香河流继续奔跑,
微微笑小时候我知道.
不要让萤火虫带着你逃跑,
乡间的歌谣,
永远的依靠,
回家吧! 回到最初的美好!

若是有读(青色的围墙)的天使,
便会知道为什么这首歌会不断的出现在,
你我身旁(^.^)

Journey to the center of the 4A class...

2010-01-11T19:10:00.002+08:00

WatLau weh...
to be a student in 4A class is my this year hardship. ( really hard )

1. lack of time usage. (busy in tuitioning)
2. like a noob in the class. (i rarely speaks to others)
3. mind terminating. (i hate physics)
4. feel like study in a phenomenon disaster place. (boys at the back are lust minded)
5. lost connection with my " earth". (all my friends are in 4B and i miss them)

But...
i was happy today,
because i finally spoke to one of the gang in 4A class students during Chemistry period in the lab. (so happy to talk to him!!!)

actually...
study in the 4A is not my really hardship.
what my really hardship in 4A class is,
i don't know them well.
And I dunno what is the center of their heart and their needs.
this had formed a big blockage for my gospel missionary...
I Prayed:
Lord! i know you have answered my prayer and you had put me in this best class of form 4. i need your guide Lord. I dunno what are they thinking, talking, and even their actions mean. For your gospel sake Lord, give me a heart of Lion. Brave enough to mingle with them (AMEN! and I finally did it today), and when the time is ripe, make me shameless enough to preach your gospel. Remember my prayer Lord, AMEN, HALLELUJAH!!!

Is your TARGET is New Jerusalem ???!!!

2009-12-24T14:35:00.003+08:00

To Angel of Shadow:

Anti-Christ is going to appear... why you don't want to listen to me...
I am trying to save you, but you rejected...
What you dunno, and what I know is, whether you like it or not,
Once you left the church life, you are died.
You are still a spritual toddler, and I am older than you.
you must have listen to my by right.
you must come back to the right path!
the truth is just only here...
you dunno what you are doing! it is not wat you said freedom or not freedom, as you still dunno yet, let me tell you,
" FREEDOM IS FROM SATAN!"
" FREEDOM CAN ONLY LEAD YOU TO DEATH"
" YOU MUST OBEY GOD, DON'T WAIT UNTIL GOD PUNISH YOU AND THEN YOU REGRET!"

listen to me sweetheart, you dunno wat you r doing now...
i am not forcing you like a barbarian or what, trying to force you to do what you don't like...( or if I did something wrong to you, I say " sorry" okay!)
i saw the truth, and i want to save your soul... listen to me...listen to God...Don't listen to your friends...

Bible, book James 4:4 said:
"Adulteresses, do you know that the friendship of the world is enimity with God? Therefore whoever determines to be friend of the world is constituted an enemy of God."

Wake up my Angel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PMR! Good! PMR, nice to play..

2009-12-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

Deng! Deng! Deng! Deng!

guess what, i score in my PMR result...
888888888888888888888888888AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'sssssssssss

i wanna shout out loud!!!!

This was my 1st thing done so perfect in my whole life. Because my UPSR only 6A's...
Wau! thank you Lord you heard my prayer, my consecgration... for his Gospel sake, i am willing to preach Gospel to 4A class next year and bare a long last fruit for Him.

Lord! I offered myself to you!
My whole life to be trained by You!
I am willing Lord! Pick me!!!!

Under Process of a precious stone..

2009-12-23T17:45:00.004+08:00

During the training,
we.. student, were like prisoner...
one week can approach the outside environment once...

the 1st week in the Lord's Table,
my 4 fregns n i was being received by a brother...
my 1st week Lord's Table was in a small small meeting hall.
later we followed the brother home.

at first, i thought we gonna to stay in a olid weird looking factory as we 1st saw his house view...
But, as we entered into his house... we shocked.
we cant believe that it was a 3 stories hveouse...
it was a very big different btween the surface and contain of his house.
the inside of the house was neat, shiny, and well designed.
and one more thing to mention, the house was full of air-cond cool feeling.
and many toilets too... me n my frens no need to fight with each other to gain the toilets for our hygiene problems.

we were also invited to a room that specially designed by his brother ( a designer ). it was neat.
the room was painted in dark blue and matched with some of the hanging white siliky curtains and some woolly cottenly mats sticked on the wall as decoration. the floors are carpeted. i like the colour of the room. it seemed like diving into a deep cool ocean... i also hoped that the roo m is mine... haha!

we played with her 3 year old daughter...
a toddler usally speaks something you can't really understand, ( but i understanded her )
She always dance all aroung the living room and always said out loud: " huain, kweiu, khee..."
you guys know what she meaned?
I heard it, and she meaned :" one two three"
haha.. kids...
his daughter like a doll.
yellowish hair and seed-like eyes, fair, but mischevious...

For the 2nd week,
I went to a sister house, for Lord's table.
wow! this sister house was just the house of the Cullen.
White perfect, Glassed wall, almost.
like the Cullens ( twilight story Vampire's house)
But the only thing missing was a white grand piano.

For the 3rd week,
i went to a glassed house too. ( that moment only i knew, Miri ppl are rich)
I served the piano service with a grand piano with the company of Angel. ( cool wo! 1st time play grand piano to worship.)

For the 4th week,
we all the trainees graduated...
after our exhibition of Christ in a Roman Catholic building like meeting hall,
we have to hiked up a 90 degree hill to reach the richest Brother in Sarawak house for feast... ( we were exhausted... to be so tired for a 700 over ppl who attend the big feast, i know it worthed... we called on God's name along the hike up the hills...as we reach the top... we shouted in happiness...)
i also imagined how i would be if i ride a bike down back the hill without a break with speed... hmmm.. i think i will find out a pile of bones there lying senseless there, and it was me, dead there )

wow! the house was awsome!!!!
it built on top of the hill beside a beach... what i know that moment was,,,, this brother was extremely 100% rich and well educated in business mind....
5 stories house... ( 3 children of his each body stay one story)
a very long and deep swimming pool..( i can't wait to jump into it!!)
small houses that he owned around the big house...
a big land he owned for building a appartment area and ready to sell...
uncountable guards,
conclusion,
his castle like house can compete with our Malaysia Prime Minister...
a house that big enough to held a bid prom!!!!
Wush shay!

to be continued.... ( maybe...if i still have time in this holiday...)

1st step 1st day...

2009-12-23T17:20:00.002+08:00

once i stepped on the foreign ground that i have'nt been,
i feel... abnormal.

once i stepped into the church of God in Miri,
my poor bags kena sportcheck... ( no... they mencabul kehormatan bag saya )
hah! just kidding.
wat they took away was my: keychains, snack,

it only took me one trip to bring my bags up 4 layer floors.. ( pretty tired )

the 1st 2 person i saw as i went into my room "403" were : Lu Bing & Ellen..
Ellen , a tom-boy.
Lu Bing , her hair , very long. like " Xiao long nV "

i slept on the top layer, ( i dun wan!!!) so climd up and set up the bed-sheet carefully.
then, i have a look on the timetable... ( 6am have to wake up ?! not bad... this what you call the life of the God's Armies..)
every mission completed, the trainers told us to attend our 1st class. ( walau! so early " shang ke".. i " Kiang" le )

I can't sleep in the 1st night...
i was not missing my home,
i was wondering how I gonna wash my clothes.. 2 sets of it.. must use hands to wash, i know, but where to wash, i kept on worrying...
i was going to fall asleep de at 11.30pm. But then, a truck suddenly roared to life and then trumbling and rumbling on the road noisily, it really distracted my sleep.. But, i still can myselft to fall into a deep slumber arter the nonsense..
my first lesson was singing hymns...

The first Day i Reached MIRI...

2009-12-22T18:46:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 2.30am that day when i was ready for my journey to the airport...
once si get into the aeroplane, i felt excited. Because that was the 1st time i have a aeroplane ride for 2 hours... i experienced the 1st time how aeroplne speeded up to the morning bluish sky... cool woh..
but... after 15 minutes... my happiness gone...
i felt sick for the ride...
the air asia plane not steady, keep on bouncing and tortured my stomoch, dizzzy!
thank God! the trip only toke me 2 hour.
wat i admired during the ride was, scence under the plane was cool...
and the dizzy thing in my stomach made me felt like want too jump off from that plane to escape from that feeling, and have a big hug with the beautiful scence...
but thank God i did'n do it, if i did it, i will surely die... haha...
i reach Miri safely that day without vomitting. Amen!

to be continued...

parts of my life in the TRaining in Miri

2009-12-22T18:34:00.011+08:00

Bye2

2009-11-22T08:08:00.000+08:00

i am off now...

Training... here i come!

2009-11-21T21:03:00.009+08:00

well... mom and Fei Boy went training already...
hope mom will get use to the condition and environment of the traning place.
( Ulu Langat )( coz this is her 1st time training )

me?

another 2 more days to fly to Miri.
1 month without home... wu... i think i will cry there and happen Tsunami.
( no lah !)

my bags were full now... ( how to reload 4 more clothes? i scare will " bao zha ")

one song i wanna sing b4 i left... ( here it goes )

...doctor, actor, lawyer or a singer...
...why not president be a dreamer...
...you can be just the one you wanna be...
...policeman, fire fighter or a postman...
...why not something like your old man...
...you can be just the one you wanna be......etc.
(peerless-Darin)

i love this song very much!

and then,
after siniging,
i want to tell you a story, is about my dream.
( maybe you will laugh out loud, never mind, i dun care )
( and maybe i read too much of Bella and Edward )
( maybe some part i forgot already )
( or maybe i am Bella )

Edward Cullen and her sister Alice Cullen followed me home sunset ( or maybe dusk)
( the sky that day was dark and just glowing with a little bit of sunlight. so i dunno whether is dusk or dawn) ...
After cleaning up self, tidy up myself and bla bla bla...
We walked to somewhere else again.
We don't use the front door of my house to exit,
we use the back door, the kitchen door to exit. ( dunno why? )
and guest what happened?
I attacked by Vampire Monkies!!! ( laugh lah! )
3 or 4 of them raced to take me as their dinner ( or maybe breakfast )
they want to suck my precious blood... ( stupid monkies! )
i still can remember the monkies characteristics.
they used to jump and fly in the air... and speed, bouncing like jackhammers...
their whole body was dark brown except for their tummy is white in colour...
i had no idea to defeat them, my mind was blank while watching those silly creature with curousity... i lost my strenght all of a sudden, my legs trembled and fell on the ground...
I shouted of course!
vampire is vampire, full of strength and speed...
half of a second, Edward reached my front and fought with those creatures...
He defeated them easily and gained victory...
i wacthced him sucked those monkies blood with naked eyes. chill!!! thought he was hungry...
Alice helped me to get up. ( but i don't felt her cold. am i a vampire too? i still had breathe )
Edward winked at me after finished his 3 or 4 set of dinner...
I forced myself to strecth a smile at him...( chill again! ya ya ... thanks for saving my life )
guess what later?
They kept on following me...( i am not digi lah )
until i reached my destination--- Church.
What?
I brought Vampires to church? FUNNY! and IMPOSSIBLE!
whatever...
Edward sat beside me, and someone passed him a hymn... ( good job )
and the church service began. ( i also saw rest of the Cullens arrived too, smiled at me, each )
( they are just fair, not perfectly beautiful...)
Alice and me sang...so do the rest of the Cullen with brothers and sisters ( gosh! a vampire sings hymn? )
Edward did not. He just staring at me. ( am I Bella? )
i thought he was reading my mind.
So i forced a smile again at him. ( i dared not talk to him )
then...
we leave happily and ever after? ( childish! what a boring ending! )
then...
he sighed, smiled at me too... started singing the hymn...

I gladed the Cullens enjoyed the Hymn,
But...
one thing for me to ask...
is a vampire has spirit?

I dunno,
then i woke up...

Angel of happiness! over here!

2009-11-20T11:34:00.005+08:00

Wand V.S. Vampire, who will win?

2009-11-19T12:27:00.003+08:00

1st,
i addicted with Harry potter saga.
2nd,
i addicted with Odonata's novels.
3rd,
i am now addicted to....... Twilight saga. ( i skipped "New Moon" )

i don't like Jacob Black,
so i skipped "new moon" lah! cannot meh!

4 more days to count down,
until i reach the airport and say :" goodbye sucks! "

Grade 8

2009-11-19T12:18:00.003+08:00

grade 8 sucks!
without the help of God,
i maybe will faint and blowing bulbles infront of the piano.

Baroque peroid is the most simplest period to play.
but now in grade 8,
like kanasai!
i hate the composer!

romantic n 20th century's song also like that!
playing pianos for 8 years, i hate romantic period the most! ( schubert! )
20th century also, but i love the melody.
( walaupun complicated, but they sound nice, just like Baroque period )

conclusion,
Life sucks, and then you die. ( yeah, I should be so lucky. )

Finally...

2009-11-18T20:34:00.003+08:00

Finally...
i can surf internet in my own house liao!!!!

piano strees makes me crazy. i wan to shout out loud...
so,
angels please cover your ear pinna now!

"AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

thank you!

Steam-boat....really steamed me up!!

2009-11-18T20:00:00.003+08:00

Me ( angel of question ),
angel of summer,
angel of rain,
angel of coffee,
angel of white hand,
angel of books,
angel of happiness... together steam a boat yesterday...

we enjoyed it very much-ie...
hey! RM 7.60 for a 2 round of steam boat feast and a karaoke, quite worth!! ( eat and sing until my stomach supernova )
what we sang? haha!!!
you never believe how "sweet and spicy" our slang was yesterday night.
chinese Jay Chow's songs... angels really enjoyed those song... ( except me )
they forced me to sing... ( walau God! )
well... i sang loh!!!
sang what?
you gonna laugh out loud loud right?
i sang " UPtown Girl"... ( angels also be my background music with the word they shouted out loud : UPTOWN GIRL. non stop... thought they just know how to sing this part only...)
one more song i sang, " LOVE LOVE LOVE " ( i was not singing to you A.O.H , so pls don't misunderstood! our love never start yet and never break yet !)

conclusion,
i ate a lot of prawns that night...

Breaking Heart

2009-11-15T20:11:00.003+08:00

Well...
i broke up with angel of happiness peacefully...
don't be so upset la dear... our relationlaship haven't start yet and never ends...
i will happy if you were just my friend...
maybe if you are one of the recovery's brothers, i will surely accept you...
But.. you now are still a Gentile , I can't betray my God just like Lucifer did...
I hate to cheat myself anymore.
i surrendered, just like Bree did...but surely not like Amy did...
is happy also to gain back my conversation with angel of black bean... ( said me noob de people lost liao... haha... i won!!)

conclusion,
is happy to be with you for these days, and grateful... to say "goodbye" in harmony with melody...

Beethoven Bacteria

2009-10-30T14:54:00.003+08:00

will i die one day...
the bacteria in my lungs non-stop terminating me...
really suffering... no reason for their appearence...
i rather die earlier than expanding the time for me to live...
life is hopeless... black... white... keyboard...

Yes! is keyboard...
keyboard saved me...
angel of happiness? no... he did nothing...
"Canon in D" we played together yesterday...
a memory that carved in my mind... extremely deep...
"First Kiss"? he knows nothing...except R.C...

repair a broken heart?
no solution at all.

Street 15

2009-10-30T14:48:00.003+08:00

遇见你们

2009-10-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

遇见耶稣，
我才相信，
有一种爱果真没条件；
爱是他来救我并住我心，
被我的软弱，
医治甘甜。
遇见你们，
我才知道，
我的产业竟是如此丰盛；
弟兄姊妹如同云彩围绕，
我真满足活在幸福之中。

他的爱情不会毁损，
他的信实从不短缺，
生命供应全备，
常新，
带我与他身体联结；
为他我愿撇下世界，
因我有更荣耀基业；
主已应许我得生命，
换来百倍，
就在今生。

Wedding Dinner or Ending Dinner?

2009-10-26T16:45:00.004+08:00

my Breaking Dawn

2009-10-24T18:11:00.003+08:00

Before Dawn of the yesterday, at 2pm.
janji temu buat badminton between:
me,
angel of diabolo,
angel of black bean,
angel of dandelion,
angel of happiness,
angel of victory,
and many more.

from 2pm to 6pm. non-stop playing.
we smash, netting in the game. ( use up all my shuttle-cocks, shit lah )
with laughter.
we smash fiercely, and netting gently.
stupid angel of black bean,
smash so hard until we cant " save the ball", good thing we had angel of victory! yeah!
somemore leh, play netting play until we dizzy... and then... smash so hard... thought we are Lee Chong Wei meh... so PRO... can die want you know...
at last,
i walk back home. ( 4 miles long... my foot cracked... from Rimba to Bt.Bendera..uh )

angel of happiness still very loves me.
dont wanna let me go... is not a good news for me... is a bad news...
i cant bare to imagine how if i tell him the truth...
because of the 3pm rain that day, i tried hard to cut off the string of our relationship. but you dont allowed.
you are tourchering me you know.
each time i see your eyes... i have no more energy to cut that string off...
leave you alone in the center of stromy sea... i cant do it...i am not that mean..

O, Lord Jesus...God...Lead me

Reshine

2009-10-21T15:40:00.001+08:00

thanks ya buddy, for your pc.
appreciate it course i will.

a river of blood.

2009-10-14T12:21:00.003+08:00

i just receive a letter from my pen-pal , JESSY, from penang.
is really happy to be friend with her.
i hope our pen-pal relationship will long last for ever,
because... writing letter is my new hobby from now on.
( i replied the letter already and hope you can receive soon )

blood is thicker than water.
so, i will start to continue my novel.
the title is "123". ( the numbers is a special date for me and my friends )
this novel is going to be a new journey for me to walk on.
the story will begin by me, one of the character in this novel...
how am i going to start this story?
........ i know!
i will begin this story with... the moment i creep out from a graveyard... with the sword which i found in the last novel i wrote... hahaha!
only a few of my friends knew what i am going to continue...
i have drawn the city that i will be there in the story, and i have shown to you all guys since February... is it beautiful? enjoy reading the story? ( sure lah!) so... wait and see for the coming episode ... >.<..yeah!

where are you now actually?

2009-09-30T12:13:00.004+08:00

to know you as my friend,
"was" my "kebanggaan".
lost you again,
is my "kekesalan".

i know that i am a stingy girl.
dont want to lend you to others,
because i scare i will lose you... again.

you sang me a song in my dream... "starry starry night..."
how much i miss you...
you woke me up in my dream,
so i started to pray for you....
and guest what happened next huh?
i sprained my hand!! while i was trying get up and pray!
( ya lah! woke me so early at 6.00am!! "thank you"!!)

and what now?
I lost you... booo.....
i want to be your compass,
but you don't allow..
remember what reason you gave me,
" is too dangerous for you to follow me go to the Black Forest. I may lost you." you said.
ya!! it is true!! it is not the one you lost me, but me... your compass!!!

uh!!!!!!!!!!!
i(was) hardly to find your footprints that you left!!!
later the moment, a hunter approached me and recued me. ( i lost in the forest)
i refused him, i want to continue searching you..
very well!! ( like that only looks like a cast-away mah...)
he gave some useful equipments to me.. ( GPS, Map, Binoculars, Solartic Torch-light... bla bla..)
i seach for you days and nights.
from sunrise till moonrise. nonstop. my shoes were worn out. ( 1 year past )
result, conclusion... no sight's' of you...
i threw away all the equipments,
i gave up searching you!
i rather being a 'Tarzan' in the forest... ( no lah ofcourse)

i climbed up the highest mount in the forest,
i switched on my GPS,
giving signals,
wait for the hunter to rescue me.

will he come?

yes! he did!

4 Angels that bring me happiness

2009-09-18T12:26:00.002+08:00

Who are the 4 angels that i abmire most?

angel of summer,
angel of happiness,
angel of fruits,
and...
me, angel of why.

what we have done for these 2 years?

so much laughter, tears...
when we will be together again?
shall we meet in scince-stream?
i know A.O.S will be in Account-stream...
we have been seperated once right?
so... i wont cry.
i am very sure that the other three of us will mantain our ...
they call it friendship.

i drew a pair of wings on my T-shirt.
and i hope i can be the best angel of my friends.
for now,
i am missing an angel very very much.
who?
dunno, i dun want to mention her.

i really miss her letters.
i really miss her handwritting.
i really miss her voice.
hope we will meet again...
perhaps...

an angel had hurt me very seriously.
but i have cured the scar that he/she hurted.
thanks for the mentioned 3 angel,
they brought me 'ubat',
that was 'ubat' of joy and true friendship.
i am happy now.
thanks ya! guys...
the coming holiday i will miss you all very much.. in Miri..
gosh! one month training!
how can i forget about it!!

one month without handphone,
blog,
chit-chating whit you all in the 'potato' ( semenanjung Malaysia)
sms-ing,
novels....
oh! i will R.I.P there!!!
........................................................................................................................................................................

Song Of Snow

2009-09-18T12:22:00.001+08:00

“难道传说你都信，
谎话你都听。
爱人是救星
还是要你的命！

难道传说你都信，
谎话你都听。
毒药你都饮，
只要心愿意。。。。

只要心愿意。“

这首歌，相信只有我和夏季天使，才懂得唱吧！
即好听，又有意义。
欢欢天使对我的爱，是“救星“，还是要我的“命“？
我并不知道。
我所知道的，
就是，
这杯毒药我不能饮。

尚若我是你的‘袁紫衣‘，
我宁愿把‘七新海棠‘ 让给‘程灵素‘。
尚若我是‘程灵素’，
我会变成绝世无敌的‘毒手药王‘。
把深藏在我心里的‘情’字，
给毒死掉。
尚若我是‘苗若兰’，
我会继续躺在‘归农‘赐给我的棺材里，
等待死神的到来。
尚若我是‘南兰‘，
我不会准守游戏规则去嫁给
打遍天下无敌手‘苗人凤’。

雪山，
暴风雪，
狐狸，
我不怕。
我只怕爱！

P.M.R

2009-09-18T12:21:00.001+08:00

Life is just like a Rubik-cube, a solid of fate and destiny.
What colour to turn, what colour to match, spins beyond your fingers.
Our fate, our life, our whole being, lies in God’s hand.
Couldn’t change it.
Spin…spin…spin…
What is my next colour?
Blue? ( Celcom )
Red? ( Hotlink )
Green? ( Maxis)
Orange? ( U- mobile)
Or maybe yellow. ( DiGi, I will follow you )

Haha….

I don’t know what colour I have past through, and what colour will I crush next.
Pray, is the way to lead me out of the daily stormy sea…

PMR, stands for what?

Pandai
Membuat
Rajin

If you all angels don’t believe, check it out in my class.. 3B.
Almost all of the angels in 3B lost their head. ( cause they are studying diligently)
Ya! I am also one part of them. ( going to drown in the ocean of words )
Thank God, there are quite many St. Johners there in my class. ( rescue the drowned one, donate our CPR. But our precious process of CPR is a bit different for this kind of situation. We don’t give them our precious “kiss” and chest compression of course. We give them chest compression by … using our feet, jump on them, and will say:” wake up you guys, PMR is approaching us, stop acting like a crop so that you can escape from it!)

Especially you Fat Cat of 3B… ( always sing the same song in the class, feel no bored ?)
………………..uh… I “ beh ta han”!

Andrew:“ I’m a Barbie girl…. Live in a Barbie world…. Is fantastic…”
( Fantastic your head!!!)

Chuah:” ne……..ne ni ne ni pupu!! You can’t catch me!!”
( stop that spinning job in the class with all the white shirt blue tie boys lah! Act like kids, chasing all around in the classroom)

Arteries and veins

2009-09-18T12:19:00.000+08:00

A murderer is just like a vampire.
Suck out your blood; steal away your soul.
A cold-blooded of gun, a blinded heart and an irreversible shot that may lead you to another destiny.
Choose yourself, turn to heaven, or turn to hell?

What is the taste of blood?

Sweet like a strawberry,
Smell like red roses,
Too lonely, like a floating ice-berg.
Full of tears and laughter.
Acidic, corrosive.

What are the sources of blood?

Ink, papers, words.
Fragrance of money.
The unity of mouth and tongue with silvery blades.
A kiss from a leukemia patient.
Himalaya Mount.
Chaos.

What are the products that produced by blood?

A temple of God.
A New-Jerusalem.
A handful of precious stones—sapphire, ruby, citrine, topaz, jade, jasper, emerald, quartz, pearl, diamond, gold, silver, bronze, crystal, onyx, platinum, sardius, carbuncle, jacinth, agate, amethyst, chrysolite.

Blood is ‘multi-cellular’.

ever think of me? or never!

2009-09-16T12:42:00.003+08:00

i think of you eah second, but have you?
you dont.
you glared at me, each time i failed you......
am i just a tiny dust that you cant see?

it is fine....
fine
fine
fine!!!!

i have done many shameful and stupid things infront of you, but you dont care, thank god.
i wan to be your perfect girl-friend. but i cant. because of my creater--- GOD.
i already had targetted by a girl wont you.... ya i know! she wrote a love letter to you b4, but you burnt it..... quite funny...

whom i love actully?
the boy in 3A?
that was last two years love story.... did he knew?
he is quite book-worm looking...( i like that kind of "handsome")
and very talented...
every time he winked at me,
each moment he smiled indirectly at me,
the moment he picked up the bookmark on the floor and returned it to me....
but......
those past was just a tale..
a tale of two angels..

did he ever knew that i have been fallen in "love" with him very much?

......i don't wish to know..
......and i don't wanna to know........
keep it as a secret in my herat deep core.......

Love is kind or blind!?

2009-09-16T12:10:00.004+08:00

i have been doing this " middle people" for around half month dy.......

kind of spy duty, but stupid.......

the boy whom i help is a bit shy... so i have to help him to takle his beloved girl.....

love is just seem to be easy to solve, but to solve the problem's solution is quite complicated...

BOY!!! you have to be brave... your mouth should not to be to straight, twist and turn a bit lah.. speaking is like driving, too straight foward and no U turn, can cause accident....... BANG!! oh my gosh!!!! pls keep your eye onthe road while you "driving!! ( e..... or.......e..or.....) see, the ambulance come dy.........

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VICTOR, VICTORIA ....... pls stop forcing me to play your favourite song again.... " mariage d'mour"

i fingers are pricking...

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neuclear bom again from the balcony...... walau!!!! thank god it didnt heat my head.... phew!!!

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Chang Hee, perhaps....... i m not trying to snatch away your "leader" badge.. don't look at me with a blazing look.
your strumming are good, no need to envy me.. i m just good at bass playing part.( thought easy)

i like the song " Apache"
this song is something like...... a magical guitar that bring me to ARABIAN place, COWBOY fighting scenery,TURKISH MARCHING rhythmic........... great!! much lovely than "SWAY"

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your name is CYRUS.
BOND-GIRL looking.......
long long flaxen rebonded hair.....
violence, daring,...
smell like jade.
loves to play dart-gun as a chew toy...

how would i ever miss you....

my secret names

2009-09-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

I would like to call myself......

VIOLET BAUDELAIRE......

JANESSA WEASLEY......

KLAUS WATSON......

NATALIE GRIFFINS....

EMMA CAHILL.....

SAPPHIRE MARINE....

GOSPEL RAVENCLAW.....

wow thats sound awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!
do call me wat ever you angels like.................................................

2009-09-09T12:04:00.000+08:00

letters.......................... letters.......................letters........

ya!~ i had just posted a letter to an angel in Kuantan Gambang yesterday....

quite happy cause , time past so long and she still can remember me!!!!!

although i have a cell phone, easy to contact with her by SMS-ing... but i much prefer to write letter to her.....

what is a letter mean to you all angels?

just a paper full of elphabert that takes time to read for?

just a job and duty for you to complete it? ( reply letters )

NO........... letters doesn't sound that for me.

contacting by using letters with each other makes me feel like, u never ever want to lost contact with angels... you will be more precious the letters and the hand writting on it.... it comfort me soo much.

ya lah.... i m idiot lah.... got phone to use, but dun wan use.....

so old fashion ... writting letters.........

is fine... say whatever you like...........

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the angel whom i wrote to, is the most understanding me angel...

i known her since i was training in the Penang church...

during those days, she had taught me many precious lesson... and i listened to her..

she had shown me the real angels ang fake angels ( demon among us )...
we had a very happy moment there during the training..
we cried together, laughed together, ate together.... even fight together... haha!!!!

i hope she will please to read my this web page of my blog. it is for her.....

you r only angel i haven't give name yet......

let me think..............

what should i name u as my guardian angel.....

HA!!!! TAG IT! GOT IT!

your name is going to be.........................

" angel of mist"!!!!

i know the "mist" word sounds weird 4 you, but it is very "berharga" 4 me..

remember the scenary outside the bus when we were taking our journey back, it was raining with mist.... pretty sad that day when we had "bertengkar" with an angel, and the scenary outside the bus had match our filling...... i can't forget it.............

ha ha ! dun remind me some one else urine in the bus, during the traffic jam on Penang bridge!
( haha! who told us to drink too much of tasty drink during lunch !!) ....... and we sang together to ferry away our sadness during the night journey back to KL church and put up a night there...

what a wonderful memory you had gave me three years ago... ya! that year, we were still at the age of twelve. not matured yet........

but now we are a teenage 15 already loh........ haiz... old liao!!!!!!

had been 3 years already.... dun no how u grow now?
hope you will reply my letters soon...... hehe!!!!!!!!

letters and our handwritting mix together had form a beautiful friendship... i appreciate that..
n remember what i told you in letter.... TRUST NO ONE!!!

and lastly.... this whole page , one big piece of my "friendship" is for you..... ( hope you like it, my new guardian angel.." angel of mist" )

ZZZZZZZ...............

2009-09-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

2day, i went 4 guitar class as usual.....

my 2 guitar family members had already past away.... so, thank God...

some other family can still affort to bring me up, i m an orphan now... so do as my brother, also had been adopted by other family. i hope he will be happy there....

i m a useless leader of my guitar group........T.T

well.... Finally...

i already knew who is my family-hold now....

CHANG HEE?
CHANG YI?

what ever.... i cant spell it... but i knew who is that ...
( wat a skinny boy 0

ya! we play the song "SWAY" today.... with the pain of my head-ache....
finger painful... head painful..... earh.............

I wont give up....

i had left the railway of guitar last 2 years, n why i went back again on this railway?

wat 4?

because of an angel....

and wat the angel did, she had left me.... ALONE....

i became an ORPHAN.......

cry... sad..... lonely....

but i remembered what AMY and DAN told me.....
they also invited me to travel to foreign countries.... i never followed them... but thanks 4 their advice....

they told me in this world, only one rule to succeed things n dreams.... TRUST NO ONE....

AGREED!!!!!

althought i m the branch of EKAT, Alistair and Bae ( also an EKAT ) betrayed me b4....
they r not my people....

white lies.... video tapes.... false note.... LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hence.........

I... TRUST NO ONE .... anymore......

trust too much , will lead you to death..... is true.

photoes that i wan 2 share

2009-09-06T16:50:00.000+08:00

this is me, in the comic that drawn by an angel..... "yeng" leh!!

the witch is me......

n the warrior girl is my fren.... angel of summer....

he drawn a gunner 4 me............ whao...... i still keep it, and a warrior..........

the ten idol in the comic of "Hwa Lian Strike".. ( i m one part of the 10)

i m standing in the lowest part, beside devil, SVD costume, S.W.A.T.!!!!!!!

cool......... i love myself....... holding SNIPER...

i still rmb we S.W.A.T go holiday, n had surfing competition in the ocean...

( i play cheat.... i use bazuka to blast faster than others.... haha! i won!!!)

YOU-KNOW-WHO.....................

THE FAMOUS 3

ME ( the witch), angel of summer ( the warrior), angel of forest ( the assasin)

haha!

hey! long time no see, i thought u mati....

2009-09-02T11:58:00.000+08:00

LONG time no see,
Thought I mati?

wah......................... wat mean...

wat i did n done during the holiday???

think..........
think.............

ah!

i know!

i did some stupid things.....

one of them was...... VIEW BACK THE PAST!!!

how?

ask me a ?

ya lah faster la!! tell la!!

ok loh!

the cara i went back 2 the past was.....

by.....

PHOTOS!!!!!!!!!!!

ya la ...

i know im idiot enough.........

but ,

it is cool to know who was my great grandmother....

ya rite!!!! she is cool.......

cooler than i thought....

wat i knew from my grandma was.....

she was from china....
and had went through a lot ( uncountable ) bitter evidents.......
lost a son, because of her brother who was kaki judi.....
no matter how hard she earned money to redeem her "sold" son....
it cant help anything... no more shadow of her son
the worst was.... she didnt even know her son had been sold away....
pretty poor....
may it was a good thing for her son to leave her and live a better life with the rich parents who had bought him........

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m i crazy?

spend the whole week of holiday on photos only?

bleh!!! where got.... so boring meh?

m i tat kind of boring person?

no lah!!!

wan know more..... go ask my fren...QUEK

i attend many many many party.....

gonna be craaaaaaazieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

ya i m crazy enough now.....

hey!!! i think i want to change my christian in secretly...

maybe.....

like the movie of " lemony snickets a series of unfortune events", the "pretty" girl as JUNE n JANE said. her name was beautiful, VIOLET BAUDELAIRE.

they said the girl pretty, n her brother KLAUS BAUDELAIRE was ugly.. but the small little baby sis SUNNY BAUDELAIRE was cute.....

where gt o......

yala! i agree their little sis was cute... but the girl was ugly n the boy was handsome... very very.. i love him .......... ( ssshhhhhhhh dont let TBY know...)

................................................

ok....

for serius.....

i wanna ask

wat is the mean "JOY" ? ( my mum ask me first )

actually many one of us dunno that, the word mean like that:

Jesus
Others
You

you should not love urself too much,

cause u will not gain happiness

if u place urself 1st in everything,

u shall gain no happiness n "kepuasan sendiri"...

human is like that... wont "puas" with anything ...

bagi 1 inch, mau satu pembaris... human always like that wan...

to avoid, place JESUS N OTHERS 1st...

ppl happy, u will also surely happy n "puas" kerana got GOD 1st...

dun love urself too much..

cause we hav Satan's poison in every each of us.... BERBISA...
wont satisfied wat we had....

Satan: an"ketua" angel.
has pretty sweet voice...

but she/he dont satisfied ( i dunno he or she bcause angel has no sex )
he/she wan same status as God.
he/she betrayed God...
he/she is the 1st liar...

whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo how scary isnt he/she....

so........
let us not be Satan's children...
but be God's children...

Aaron
Melissa
Elaine
Nick

Henry
a
l
l
e
l
u
y
a
h
!

THaTS MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!

FINALE..........

T.T

2009-08-20T13:37:00.001+08:00

I m day dreaming now

2009-08-19T14:40:00.000+08:00

"I wan to be a well-known inventor."
"Ur brain is very blank..."
I know my science n maths r not good. (simple 123 sure i know)

"I wan to be a singer like Christine."
"I rather listen to my mum's mummering..."
I know my voice will out of tune. (but i m sure i dont have bad breathe)

"I wan to be a famous pianist, like the mother in the movie "UNLEASHED"."
Ur specticles r thick enough..."
I know i always hit the wrong key. ( but my retina still in good condition)

"I wan to be a forensic."
"wat? then i will be a vampire..."
I know i scare of blood. (but i wil throw onion on u)

"Beat it... Beat it..."
"... u r not MJ, stop moonwalking, ur shoes will spoil..."
"u r not alone.... i m here wit you..."
"i m not alone, thank u..."
I know i cant be a queen of pop. (cant be a MJ, then i wil be DJ)

"yo! yo! wat's up! yo! check it out!"
"u better maintain ur DJ fingers pointing style n be a spiderman..."
I know i cant do break dance. ( but some other day i wil break u)

"........."
"?... u wan to be pengiun?! HOLY GRACE!!!"
I know i can't dance gracefully. ( my dances r not holy ok! n Grace Cahill is not here )

"I wan to be a pilot."
"you got buy insurance ah?"
I know i dunno how to fly. ( but i know how to fly u away)

"I wan to be students' nightmare--- A LECTURER"
"I cant see u eh....... yiu hoo... where r you......"
I know i m short. ( but i can see u)

"I wan to be a lovely gardener."
"than i will bring back a lot of Mandrakes from Hogwarts..."
I know each time i grow a plant will surely fail. ( but i will be a samurai to kill all those Mandrakes, i wont grow them with love)

"then......... wat i gonna to be in the future?"
"DO UR PART NOW 1ST!!!"

I wake...

A letter 4 an angel --- Angel of Shadow ( i hope u noe who u r )

2009-08-19T14:19:00.000+08:00

to A.O.S:

We know each other for half year alredy. Each moment i done something wrong to you, please forgive me. I m still a small kid ( ya lah, not kidding), and very "small gas"( translate it into chinese), and sensitive to relationship ( i m not a LB).

You had gave me many wonderful time, thank you. But, may be you had never ever knew, you had also gave me many sad memory. Ofcourse, memory is the source of tears dropping. I smile n laugh at u every second after the sunrise, you knew it. But I cry n yell like hell in my heart on the bed every day after the sunset, you dunno. Who am I actually, each time I look at the mirror..

Someday you will leave this city, I know. And I hope you will bring along our friendship wherever you go, remember me.You are also the most special angel I ever met in my whole life.Not because you are XXXXXX, but your inner character. It really touch n light up my life n heart. I think i had changed a lot, since i met you.

What i wanna say is...... MADE THE SMARTEST DECISION 1st B4 U DO ANYTHING..
( dun cry at me if u made the wrong decision cauze you never think twice. I will never pitty u!!)

love for one angel

2009-08-18T13:41:00.000+08:00

"wat is it?"
"a....... love letter perhaps..."
"........."
"why r u looking at me like that?"
"u wrote it won't you?"
"nope........"
"then... throw it!!"
my eyes are turning red...

"why don't you just read it?"
"why should i?"
my heart is breaking... cracking..

"someone loves you..."
"so...who is that idiot?"
my hair turn white....

"you don't care the person, who wrote you this....letter?"
"i care for my exist, more than i care anyone else!"
my heart stop pounding...
i close my eyes...

the silent of the dark tells me that,
HIS HEART HAD CHANGE...

2009-08-18T13:14:00.000+08:00

Think of Me

Think of me,

think of me fondly

when we've said goodbye.

Remember me

once in a while,

please promise me you'll try.

When you find

that once again you long

to take your heart back and be free,

if you ever find a moment,

spare a thougt for me.

We never said

our love was ever green

or as unchanging as the sea,

but if you can still remember,

stop and think of me.

Think of

all the things we've shared and seen,

don't think about

the things which might have been.

Think of me,

think of me waking

silent and resigned.

Imagine me,

trying too hard

to put you from my mind.

Recall those days,

look back onall those times,

think of the things we'll never do.

There will never be

a day when I won't think of you.

Can it be,

can it be Christine?

What a change, you're really not a bit

the gawkish girl that once you were.

She may not remember me but

I remember her.

We never said

our love was ever green,

or as changing as the sea

but please promise me

that sometimes you will think of

ah----------------

of me!

Dedicated to: angel of summer >.<

Exam Month...in fear but ENJOY!!! ( I m not "siao")

2009-08-17T13:09:00.000+08:00

ya! stop reminding me about PMR is just around the corner...
if the PMR is just around the corner, why dont we just take a "U" turn to 扫corner and escape, stand there like an idiot 4 wat?

haha!!! ya......... u r rite, i m now betul-betul "siao" dy...

Exam month.... hm........ let me see......

no more day-dreaming, no more laughter, no more chatting nonsense, no more question mark... n so on.......

wat a boring August...

the first exam i exposed in this month was........ piano exam..

"young chang" korea piano brand again... pitty me, but wat 2 do... cant change the reality. hope that one day JS music wil brankrupcy only lo.... "yamaha" piano!!! I MISS YOU!!!
ok... fine...
i m glad that i can drive smoothly on the road of piano exam.. NO NERVOUS!
thanks ya, angel of forest!
the moment u told the characteristic of the examiner... the moment i stepped into the exam room (with wearing mask) ... WAS A BIG COMFORT 4 me... hah!
n... i wanna wish thanks, to angel of summer. thanks 4 ur caring... u r my best pal... (not like other schmuck angelssssss.....)

N today is my first PMR percubaan exam....
nothing to fear.... ( bcauz the exam paper is not holding a parang like wanto kill u) "bo zhun"!!!
n wanna say thanks again 2 angel of summer. Thanks 4 the tips....

during the exam, i thought back a lot of bad memories that gave by 4 angels 2 months ago.
they thought they had gave me a 难忘的回忆.

ya is unforgetable... but...

is NOT THAT KIND OF HAPPY MEMORY...

YA !!! 4 u all is a happy memory!!!
But 4 ME..... IS NOT HAPPY!!! is like kind of ..... u know....... A SAD n BAD MEMORY!!!
From that moment u all dump me that day, saya telah MENGUBAHKAN pandangan saya terhadap lu semua orang!!!!!!!! ( eventhought u all r recovery angels ) I will.... n I M SERIOUS!!!

u all really hurt me, angels........!!!!!!!!

O LORD JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 4give me what i m talking about......................................................................................................................................................... n i wanna start dropping tears now......

Angels, any tissue?

2009-08-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

( left side image )
那天星期六，神隐天使请我吃的“tart". Blueberry flavour, you dun like, ilke!!!!! Thanks ya!!!

( right side image )

同样的那一天，我和外婆齐心合力做的。。。kuih.

can see but cannot eat these both cake... cemburu leh... wan hit me?? nie ni nie ni pupu... 打不到我。

右边的kuih, 我打算将它取名为“爱心千层"。很好听叻。。。。。

那天拜一。。。（看了这盏灯的天使，别怕；我不是要说鬼故事。）

这盏灯，看起来浪漫吗？

告诉你，这是一盏我和一位靓仔天使约会用的烛光。。。。

骗你的啦！我并没有男朋友。

其实，这是一盏停电时，拿出来顶替黑暗霸占四周用的灯。

记得那天，我补钢琴班，不到一半时，停电了，（我不怕！）这盏灯就这样登场在我眼前咯！

也很好笑，因为热的关系，天使老师便拿了几把扇子出来给我用。有green apple, jellyfish, pig-pig 的图案。很可爱，很小个，扇不出我要的凉度；只好say no. 她的儿子也蛮顽皮，（不是蛮顽皮，是简直）拿手电筒扮鬼脸下我们，（吓不到我，因为不够 high tech...), and then 和一位小天使玩，学西游记里的铁扇公主。。。斗狂扇。炸到，扇到扇子烂掉！

（刚刚那些，只是在浪费你的时间而已。重点是这个段落你非读不可。有关福音的。）

望着那盏灯，我想了一句名句：“ 石在，火种是不会灭的".

但，我所谓的石在，并不是 fire, but is G...O...S...P...E...L...!

在圣经启示录理有说到属灵方面的四匹马。

这四匹马象征了现在的世界。

首先是红马，它象征了战争普及。比如现在的以色列国 VS 伊拉克国。他们的战争，不是为了个人的利益，而是为了完成圣经里神的经纶。

二来是黑马，它象征了饥荒增剧。非洲里的饥荒，是神的curst的。所以为什么黑人会没食物。在创世纪里的诺亚故事里有清楚说到。以上两国的战争，也是会造成由饥荒的其中一个原因。

有黑马，也就是说会有灰马。这灰马，象征了死亡。

听了我以上所说的三匹马后，你是否觉得我们人活在这世上，是没有盼望了，对吧？But i wanna tell u that.......... you r wrong!!!!!! we... human still got hope... GOD create us from the beginning and never give up from saving us from Satan's hand. GOD save us by using the presence of GOSPEL. The purpose for GOD to save us is to enjoy, eat, drink, express, n to live Him. That's why GOD create us!! OH! wat a joy!!! GOD want us to be with Him, and same as He is in nature and in living.... praise the Lord!! Hallelujah!!!

那就是白马，象征福音广传。阿门！！

今天未知...

2009-08-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

歪歪的“咒语”

2009-08-07T14:29:00.000+08:00

这是我和欢欢天使昨天补习打仗，打出来的伤口。美叻。。。。

唉！谁叫他生病，而且好像病得很严重，今天没来学校。不然。。。。哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！一定被我打得比这个严重。欢欢天使啊！生病就生病咯，不要再死撑啦！我知道老师说，男儿当志强；但看你这个猫样，一点都不强，而是很娘。所以，去看医生然后吃药！

现在...."咒语登场“

神隐天使的背叛，

使我眼泪到处弹；

眼前灯光渐渐暗，

缤纷彩虹随风散。

神隐天使：你无所不谈的口水，使我不想拥有的泪水！！！

五颜六色鹅卵石，

代表着白手天使；

树凯出现那一日，

等待你我一起拾。

白手天使：对不起！！！昨天霸了你一整天的鹅卵石，希望你不要生气。我也要感谢你，感谢你耐心的等待我手中的那第100粒鹅卵石的归还，没把其余的99粒鹅卵石把我给丢死！哈哈！

玻璃天使展翅飞，

飞越天涯何陶醉；

淡雅宜人如芭蕾，

哪怕歌声悲如泪。

玻璃天使：没事了！别哭了。

爱情遇见了天堂，

躲不过七心海棠；

夏季天使从天降，

拥抱孤单的肩膀。

夏季天使：谢谢你在这四年里的鼓励，陪伴，使我不致走迷途。我爱你！

死亡天使没有爱，

也没有一点关怀；

非善非恶塔罗牌，

命运始终不明白。

死亡天使：好想和你和好，传福音给你。

思念香蕉天使

2009-08-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

今天一早，蚊子天使来找我闲聊。说她很想念香蕉天使。哎！三年不见那家伙了，有谁会不想念那傻乎乎的香蕉脸呢！好啦！你这香蕉天使，有翼有毛，会飞啦！飞到去怡保将远，蚊子天使快想死你了。也不知，你现在过得如何？要是能够与你相见，我要抓着你不放，向你传福音。传到你没有力飞回怡保为止。哈哈！

可怜的欢欢天使，因为昨天打针针，今天无段段发烧。上课一半回家了。愿主保守你啊！还说是什么鬼预防针，打了之后，差不多一半以上可爱活泼的天使，都变成了脸丑丑的恶魔。可怜！

我今天怎么了，看见神隐天使那黑蓝色的翅膀，我竟然没有喜乐在心头。也许是引擎天使那短短几天的消失，我学会独立，不再依赖了。谢谢你，我学会长大了！

天使

2009-08-05T14:21:00.000+08:00

好开心，能够遇见天使。

*The Beacon*

GTH