Wedding Dinner or Ending Dinner?

my Breaking Dawn

Before Dawn of the yesterday, at 2pm.
janji temu buat badminton between:
me,
angel of diabolo,
angel of black bean,
angel of dandelion,
angel of happiness,
angel of victory,
and many more.

from 2pm to 6pm. non-stop playing.
we smash, netting in the game. ( use up all my shuttle-cocks, shit lah )
with laughter.
we smash fiercely, and netting gently.
stupid angel of black bean,
smash so hard until we cant " save the ball", good thing we had angel of victory! yeah!
somemore leh, play netting play until we dizzy... and then... smash so hard... thought we are Lee Chong Wei meh... so PRO... can die want you know...
at last,
i walk back home. ( 4 miles long... my foot cracked... from Rimba to Bt.Bendera..uh )

angel of happiness still very loves me.
dont wanna let me go... is not a good news for me... is a bad news...
i cant bare to imagine how if i tell him the truth...
because of the 3pm rain that day, i tried hard to cut off the string of our relationship. but you dont allowed.
you are tourchering me you know.
each time i see your eyes... i have no more energy to cut that string off...
leave you alone in the center of stromy sea... i cant do it...i am not that mean..

O, Lord Jesus...God...Lead me

Reshine

thanks ya buddy, for your pc.
appreciate it course i will.

a river of blood.

i just receive a letter from my pen-pal , JESSY, from penang.
is really happy to be friend with her.
i hope our pen-pal relationship will long last for ever,
because... writing letter is my new hobby from now on.
( i replied the letter already and hope you can receive soon )

blood is thicker than water.
so, i will start to continue my novel.
the title is "123". ( the numbers is a special date for me and my friends )
this novel is going to be a new journey for me to walk on.
the story will begin by me, one of the character in this novel...
how am i going to start this story?
........ i know!
i will begin this story with... the moment i creep out from a graveyard... with the sword which i found in the last novel i wrote... hahaha!
only a few of my friends knew what i am going to continue...
i have drawn the city that i will be there in the story, and i have shown to you all guys since February... is it beautiful? enjoy reading the story? ( sure lah!) so... wait and see for the coming episode ... >.<..yeah!

where are you now actually?

to know you as my friend,
"was" my "kebanggaan".
lost you again,
is my "kekesalan".

i know that i am a stingy girl.
dont want to lend you to others,
because i scare i will lose you... again.

you sang me a song in my dream... "starry starry night..."
how much i miss you...
you woke me up in my dream,
so i started to pray for you....
and guest what happened next huh?
i sprained my hand!! while i was trying get up and pray!
( ya lah! woke me so early at 6.00am!! "thank you"!!)

and what now?
I lost you... booo.....
i want to be your compass,
but you don't allow..
remember what reason you gave me,
" is too dangerous for you to follow me go to the Black Forest. I may lost you." you said.
ya!! it is true!! it is not the one you lost me, but me... your compass!!!

uh!!!!!!!!!!!
i(was) hardly to find your footprints that you left!!!
later the moment, a hunter approached me and recued me. ( i lost in the forest)
i refused him, i want to continue searching you..
very well!! ( like that only looks like a cast-away mah...)
he gave some useful equipments to me.. ( GPS, Map, Binoculars, Solartic Torch-light... bla bla..)
i seach for you days and nights.
from sunrise till moonrise. nonstop. my shoes were worn out. ( 1 year past )
result, conclusion... no sight's' of you...
i threw away all the equipments,
i gave up searching you!
i rather being a 'Tarzan' in the forest... ( no lah ofcourse)

i climbed up the highest mount in the forest,
i switched on my GPS,
giving signals,
wait for the hunter to rescue me.

will he come?


























































































































































































































































































































yes! he did!

4 Angels that bring me happiness

Who are the 4 angels that i abmire most?

angel of summer,
angel of happiness,
angel of fruits,
and...
me, angel of why.

what we have done for these 2 years?

so much laughter, tears...
when we will be together again?
shall we meet in scince-stream?
i know A.O.S will be in Account-stream...
we have been seperated once right?
so... i wont cry.
i am very sure that the other three of us will mantain our ...
they call it friendship.


i drew a pair of wings on my T-shirt.
and i hope i can be the best angel of my friends.
for now,
i am missing an angel very very much.
who?
dunno, i dun want to mention her.

i really miss her letters.
i really miss her handwritting.
i really miss her voice.
hope we will meet again...
perhaps...

an angel had hurt me very seriously.
but i have cured the scar that he/she hurted.
thanks for the mentioned 3 angel,
they brought me 'ubat',
that was 'ubat' of joy and true friendship.
i am happy now.
thanks ya! guys...
the coming holiday i will miss you all very much.. in Miri..
gosh! one month training!
how can i forget about it!!

one month without handphone,
blog,
chit-chating whit you all in the 'potato' ( semenanjung Malaysia)
sms-ing,
novels....
oh! i will R.I.P there!!!
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Song Of Snow

“难道传说你都信，
谎话你都听。
爱人是救星
还是要你的命！

难道传说你都信，
谎话你都听。
毒药你都饮，
只要心愿意。。。。

只要心愿意。“


这首歌， 相信只有我和夏季天使，才懂得唱吧！
即好听，又有意义。
欢欢天使对我的爱，是“救星“，还是要我的“命“？
我并不知道。
我所知道的，
就是，
这杯毒药我不能饮。

尚若我是你的‘袁紫衣‘，
我宁愿把‘七新海棠‘ 让给‘程灵素‘。
尚若我是‘程灵素’，
我会变成绝世无敌的‘毒手药王‘。
把深藏在我心里的‘情’字，
给毒死掉。
尚若我是‘苗若兰’，
我会继续躺在‘归农‘赐给我的棺材里，
等待死神的到来。
尚若我是‘南兰‘，
我不会准守游戏规则去嫁给
打遍天下无敌手‘苗人凤’。

雪山，
暴风雪，
狐狸，
我不怕。
我只怕爱！